Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Speeding by in slow motion

That is how life feels right now. One minute I am fretting because it will be several weeks before the FET. Then I am panicking that I start Lupron injections in 10 short days. December 21st (BETA) seems like an eternity away. Yet, Dec.11th (transfer day) is just around the corner. I am excited to pursue this option and pray that it works. Yet I am terrified that it will and then there is no turning back. Eleven years as a family of two spoils you! I enjoy sleeping in. I love to pamper myself. And right now I am the princess! Am I ready to give up my tiara?? The answer is, yes I am. Though it won't be without adjustments.

It all seems to unreal to me still. We have waited so long for this that I keep waiting for the bad news to come. Either that the donors changed their mind. Or the money is not available. Or I don't respond to the meds. Then I am on a high, looking at baby furniture and discussing baby names. If I am this crazy on just the progesterone what will I be like on the other meds? I hope that my hubby doesn't have me committed!!!


  1. WOW-almost the exact same feelings I had. Best wishes! It will be here before you know it mama!

  2. I felt and continue to feel the same way!!! I just love your post title!!! Try to enjoy the ride and blog as much as possible, so you have a record of your feelings and emotions!!!



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