Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Officially the Christmas Season!!

I love Christmas! I love the sights, the sounds and the smells. I enjoy baking and December fills our home with the lovely smells of cinnamon, cookies, and breads. I love shopping, though I hate the commercialism that has invaded this holiday. I can't wait to put up my tree and set out decorations. In the beginning of our marriage I decked out the whole place. Through the years infertility has taken its toll and my anticipation of the season has waned.

I hate that infertility has robbed me of some of the enjoyment of Christmas. Yes, I know that the focus should be on Christ's birth. And I do focus on that. But Christmas is also about families. And mine is lacking. It is hard to hang just 2 stockings. There are no presents under the tree for little children, no kids desperately trying to fall asleep so that they can open presents Christmas morning. No 6 am wake-up with children jumping on our bed. No littles sitting around listening to the Christmas story. Just 2 adults sleeping in, making a big Christmas breakfast with a latte and then open gifts when we get around to it. Or we open them Christmas eve, but that is because my hubby is still a kid at heart and cannot wait.

This year is a little better as we have our upcoming FET to look forward to. But it is for this very reason that I am nervous. We will have our BETA on 12/21, just days before Christmas. This year I will either be unable to sleep from the anticipation of telling our news, or I will be unable to get out of bed to share in the festivities, too depressed to function. No, I am not planning on being depressed if it does not work, but let's be honest, the chances of me taking it well are slim to none. But until then I am going to enjoy this holiday season as much as I can. I am going to start it off right today with a trip to Starbucks on my way to the mall!! Today is Black Friday and to us shopaholics a holiday all in itself.


  1. I went to starbucks today, too. The closest one to me is an hour away, so it's a special event whenever I get to go.

    I sincerely pray that you'll have something big to celebrate on Christmas morning this year (not that it's bigger than the Reason we celebrate, but you know what I mean!).

    Happy Black Friday!

  2. I always know it's Christmas season when Starbucks starts bringing out the red cups again.

  3. Praying you will be unable to sleep this Christmas in anticipation of telling your wonderful news!

  4. I pray that you will have a successful FET cycle. Good luck!


I love comments! They make me feel important.