This week is THE week. I start lupron on Wednesday. A part of me is sad that I have to do all of this just for a chance and pregnancy, but there is another part of me, a larger part, that is so thankful for medical science giving me this opportunity. I am so convinced that it is going to work that I talk about my babies like they are already growing. I am not sure if I am just being optimistic or setting myself up for heartbreak. But I need this right now. I need the faith and the hope that optimism brings.
My family is even being optimistic. This is the first time that they have ever been optimistic and supportive and it is wonderful! My brother called me the other day to say that there was a yard sale with a bunch of baby stuff. I told him to call my sister who actually has a baby but he said "yeah, but you are gonna need all that stuff next year." Like it was a given. My mom even looked through a clearance rack for a maternity bathing suit for me for next summer. I love that they are so sure that this will work!
I'm sooo excited for you, Jess!!! :) :) :)
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Yes, its going to work! I had the same attitude and look at me now :) I talked about my babies and have prayed over my belly for MONTHS! God will give you the desires of your heart!
ReplyDeletethat made me cry. I am so excited for you! I know how hard it is to let yourself hope again. I am praying for you :)
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Good luck, sweetie!! Praying for you - Lupron starts TOMORROW!! I'm telling you, it isn't bad at all - and I hate needles! So glad we can go through this journey together!
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