I was thinking today of all the money that we have spent, and will spend, on adoption attempts and fertility treatments. I was thinking about what we could have spent that money on. A down payment on a house. That would have been nice. Or a Nissan 350z for me. That would have been SWEET! I would look good in one of those. A burnt orange one, maybe? Yeah baby! If not that then a really nice wardrobe. An authentic Prada and maybe an LV or two. And maybe a pair of Christian Louboutins. Mhhmmm! A trip to Paris instead? Some shopping in Paris! That sounds like fun! So many fun things that we could have done with that money! Or we could have been more altruistic and donated to charities. Options! Options!
Instead we have spent it on lawyers, doctors, blood work, ultrasounds, and meds. And if we are really fortunate it will all result in dirty diapers, (more) stretch marks, sleepless nights, spit up stained clothing and wider hips. Hmmm...not sure if that sounds like a fair trade!!! Or if we are not fortunate then all we end up with are receipts. That really sounds unfair!!! I am sure that I would look better with an envelope clutch purse than an envelope of paid receipts. But even with all of the risks it is worth it to us. Just for that slim chance of being able to conceive we are willing to give up material things. But if this does not work I am buying me something shiny!!!