Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Remembering a Dear Friend

I found out today that fellow infertile sister of mine passed away. Renee and I met over 4 years ago on an infertility forum. We became friends pretty quickly and liked to banter and bicker with each other. Renee hated the color pink, a color that I absolutely love!! She liked to razz me about my obsession with fashion and shopping. I would post things just to annoy her. It was a fun relationship!!

Her death has hit me hard. Though we never met face to face our hearts were knitted together by our common bond of infertility as well as our Lord. I hurt for her husband right now as I don't know how he can survive the loss of his soul mate. I cannot imagine facing what he will face in the days, weeks and months to come. How do you get over something like that? No one should ever have to go through this especially at such a young age.

In life Renee mourned her empty arms, but right now she is in Heaven and that pain is gone. I am glad that her physical pain as well as her emotional pain no longer exists though I hurt for those that she left behind. Her passing has put so many things into perspective. God has given me so many things to be thankful for and this is a reminder of that. I thank God for my husband, my church, my friends and my family. Though I hope that my infertility journey soon comes to an end I realize that it pales in comparison to the loss of a loved one.

I will miss you, Renee!!!!!!


  1. Wow, Im still just blown away by this! My family and I took a drive tongiht and all I could think was... This is his first full day and night without her! So young!! It really does make you just stop and realize all the little things that just dont matter and reminds me to be thankful for what God has allowed me to have in my life!

  2. I was so sorry to hear of Renee's passing. I do know her earthy pain and heartache is gone. I also pray for her DH and family.


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