One year ago today I started my first FET cycle. I began injecting hormones into my body preparing my uterus for 2 little embryos. At 7 am, one year ago today, I sat on my bed with tears running down my face, terrified to give myself a shot. I was angry that it had come to this, that a baby was not easy. Yet, I was thankful for the advancement of medical science that allowed us to have this wonderful opportunity. One year ago today Maddie was sitting in a freezer just waiting for me. One year ago today I felt the first stirrings of hope that I had not felt in many years. I was so scared that it would not work. This was our last hope. We had tried adoption and was not ready to do that again. We had tried IUIs and knew that there was no chance that that would ever work for us. IVF was not really an option. This was it. Our last chance. And not only our last chance, but these embryo's only chance at life. It is an awesome responsibility to know that these little lives are depending on you and your body. Granted, it is all up to God whether they survived or not, but I wanted to do everything I could to give them the best possible chance at survival.
So one year ago today I had little hope, no baby, a box of meds and one last chance. Today I have a little one sitting here next to me. What a difference a year makes!!!
Just plain awesome!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing.
ReplyDelete"So one year ago today I had little hope, no baby, a box of meds and one last chance. Today I have a little one sitting here next to me. What a difference a year makes!!!"
Indeed!
I hope to be able to write something just like this next year at this time...
Wow- so incredible to see how everything has worked together for good-- to make your precious little girl's life a reality! I'm so happy for you & your family!
ReplyDeleteI just had twin girls on Nov 4th via DE IVF. A year ago, we were feeling overwhelmed, trying to choose a donor that was actually available, and dealing with the emotional ups & downs of the challenge of conceiving in this way. It's a blessing beyond measure that we have our baby girls now! Praise God!
Thank you for sharing and giving me hope that maybe, just maybe I'll be typing a very similar post in about a year:)
ReplyDeleteCount your blessings for sure.How bittersweet is this? God answers prayer.Just gives me chills to read your new post.I wrote something like this in my prayer journal some years ago and they (some of my prayers)came true.:)
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful post and gives the rest of us so much hope! ((hugs Jess))
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW :) What a touching post - it gives me such hope, thank you. Best wishes and prayers for you and your family.
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