Tuesday, November 23, 2010
One year ago today.....
One year ago today I started my first FET cycle. I began injecting hormones into my body preparing my uterus for 2 little embryos. At 7 am, one year ago today, I sat on my bed with tears running down my face, terrified to give myself a shot. I was angry that it had come to this, that a baby was not easy. Yet, I was thankful for the advancement of medical science that allowed us to have this wonderful opportunity. One year ago today Maddie was sitting in a freezer just waiting for me. One year ago today I felt the first stirrings of hope that I had not felt in many years. I was so scared that it would not work. This was our last hope. We had tried adoption and was not ready to do that again. We had tried IUIs and knew that there was no chance that that would ever work for us. IVF was not really an option. This was it. Our last chance. And not only our last chance, but these embryo's only chance at life. It is an awesome responsibility to know that these little lives are depending on you and your body. Granted, it is all up to God whether they survived or not, but I wanted to do everything I could to give them the best possible chance at survival.
So one year ago today I had little hope, no baby, a box of meds and one last chance. Today I have a little one sitting here next to me. What a difference a year makes!!!
Posted by Jess at 9:36 AM