Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Struggling with Thankfulness

But not in the way that you might think. This year it is easy to be thankful as I have my beautiful daughter sitting beside me. I have a wonderful hubby, a great family and the baby that I have prayed for. How can I not be thankful? And I am. Very thankful. But conviction for past unthankfulness has gripped my heart. For so many years I was completely focused on having a baby that I often missed the blessings around me. It is easy to thank God when we get our way but what about when things are not going so well? Are we not to thank Him then as well? I am saddened to say that I was not always very thankful.

I recently came across a blog that has made me see the error of my ways. The blogger, Mattie, delivered her son Jakin yesterday. Jakin is her third child and the second one she delivered into Heaven in the past 14 months. She had him last night and through it all her faith has been strong. Her blog is not riddled with anger or bitterness as I am sure mine would have been. I cannot even imagine what she and her husband are going through right now. She is am amazing woman and if you have a moment please stop over at Creative Joy and show her some support. While most of us are with our families today she is planning her son's funeral.

If Mattie can find something to be thankful for today I am sure that all of us can as well.


  1. That is so sad about Mattie.

    You're right, it is very hard to be thankful when things are not going well, but even still, He is able and gracious enough to provide us with peace.

  2. Jess, thank you for sharing about this precious family.

  3. Sometimes it really just plain sucks to look back on the road we have walked and see just how much we missed because we had tunnel vision. Those are the hard moments, but also the ones to be grateful for because they remind us to live this moment as it is here, and to be grateful for the full spectrum of things going on in this moment.


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