Infertility, that is. I was so excited to finally get pregnant last year that I just knew everything would be easier from here on out. I must have been smoking crack cause that is so not true! Okay, it is slightly true. Now that I have a baby the pain has lessened considerably. But the rest of it is still the same. On the way home from the hospital after giving birth I was missing my baby bump and wanted to be pregnant again already. I still mourn not being pregnant anymore. And while I am loving and enjoying every minute of being a mommy and having Maddie here I am already thinking about "next time". If I was fertile I doubt that I would even be worrying about it, but considering that nothing is easy here in the last of the infertiles I have to begin planning.
I am wondering how we will afford this again. And where will we go for our next FET? Our clinic closed so it is back to square one. And what if it doesn't work the first time? Can we afford to do this not once, but twice? Or even three times? I hate that money is such an issue when it comes to getting pregnant. It would be so much cheaper if I could spend $40 on some sexy lingerie and some candles instead of PIO and Estrace. And if you are in high school the candles and lingerie are not even necessary.
There is just no way around it.....infertility sucks!!!