If one more person....

If one more person tells me that Maddie will "come when she is ready" or that I need to "be patient" and I will "have the rest of my life with her" I am going to freaking scream! Yes, I am a first time mom. Yes, I want to meet my little one. Yes, I am uncomfortable and feel like an huge beached whale. But that has absolutely nothing to do with my impatience right now. I have been on bed rest for a month and I hate it! But even that is not enough for me to want her to come early. I have mild preeclampsia. I have heard of pre-e and I knew that it was potentially dangerous. What I didn't know was that mild pre-e can drive you loony! I have a list of things (headache, seeing spots, sudden swelling, etc) that I have to watch for and any of them could indicate a serious situation. What makes it even worse is that I have been having migraines and they mimic pre-e headaches. It can be a bit nerve racking. Pre-e is a very serious condition that can change almost instantly. And now that my blood pressure is running a bit higher I am even more at risk. THIS is why I want Maddie to arrive. Sitting here hoping and praying that my body does not cause my baby harm is not a fun place to be. My OB is fantastic and watching me carefully. He is trying to keep both of safe as well as try to avoid a c-section if at all possible. He wants Maddie to stay where she is as long as it is healthy for her and me. So wanting Maddie to arrive is not just a matter of convenience, but a health issue. And if one more person acts like I am just impatient you may see me on the nightly news, whooping someone's hiney!!!