I went today for my lining scan and at first everything was perfect. My lining was right where the RE wanted it (had been too thick previously) and I was so excited. Then the RE (my local one) said that it looked like there was fluid in one of my tubes. My heart just sank. I knew that this was it, the cycle was doomed. And I was right, it has been canceled. I am devastated. I have to stop meds today and schedule an HSG. I have no idea if this will be covered by insurance. I don't even know who I should call to have it ordered. My local RE is one that I only see for monitoring. I called and left a message with both my OBs office and the REs office and hopefully I will find something out tomorrow.
A part of my just wants to quit. Maybe it is time, I don't know. Hubby is being really supportive and encouraging, but I just don't know if I can keep doing this. I hate throwing so much money away. This time it was for absolutely nothing. I will have nothing to show for this. Well, maybe more medical bills.
I am just sick over all of this. Sick and tired and discouraged. I just don't know what to do. Maybe God is telling us to stop. Maybe not. I just wish I knew.
Praying for discernment. It's hard when you are pushing through for something and just don't know. Praying that God gives you the answers in a clear way.
ReplyDeleteI don't hear stop in any of that form the u/s. I hear "wait". Let's see what is going on in your tubes and go from there. Won't the transfer fees/travel arrangements be held for a later date? I know you lost the money for meds/monitoring. I am sorry this is happening. Praying for you all!
ReplyDeleteHoly beep this must be frustrating. ENOUGH already!!!!! Man, infertility really does test us, and kicks us when we are down. So sorry to hear this and I wish I could do something to change it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. Canceled cycles are so hard. Praying for you.
ReplyDeletepraying for you!!!
ReplyDeleteHugs!!! I am in a similar spot with deciding on whether to stop or continue on!! It is such a difficult decision. Wishing you the best!!! Hope if you decide to continue on that you are able to very soon!!!
ReplyDeleteI am soooo very sorry. The IF rollercoaster is sooo very hard. hugs.
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I am so sorry for this news. I've been thinking about you all day. I wish I could jump through the screen and give you giant hugs. It's just not fair. Takes some time to recoup before making any big decisions....
ReplyDelete..thinking of you!
Adoption is spiritual warfare- Satan does not want you to get to those babies. Don't give up! Trust God's timing and keep your keep up. Sorry you have to go through all this.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry,it is so hard when cycles get canceled and you get stuck in limbo for a bit. Hang in there. ""hugs"" -Megan
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