Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Man, I feel so out of the loop!

I had really thought that by 5 months we would have this whole baby thing down and I would have more time to post, but nope! Not happening! After Maddie's ear infection we had to start over from scratch. She is finally allowing me to put her down in her jumperoo or swing for a little bit, but she is not too keen being left with daddy right now. While a part of me is happy that she likes me more (she was such a daddy's girl) I wish that she would go to him and not scream bloody murder. It totally ticks her off if I leave her side. She only does this with him and we have no idea why. And I know that it hurts his feelings especially since he was the favorite for the first 4 months.

Another bad habit that she has developed and not quit broken yet is that when she wakes up for middle of the night feeding (that I cannot break her from doing) she will not, under any circumstances, go back to her bed. She insists upon sleeping in my arms. I woke up this morning so contorted that not only was my arms and leg asleep, but my left side of my face was numb as well. All the way up to my eyebrows! Crazy feeling! We have a guest this week and it is easier to keep her in our room, but this week we will go back to putting her in her room and for her midnight snack I will feed her in her room and return her to her bed right away. And keep doing it until she gets the hint. Or until sleep deprivation overtakes me and I give in and bring her to bed with me.

I used to work full time, be active in my church and help my hubby with his non-profit and I still had more time that I do now. How is that possible?? There never seems to be enough time in the day. Yet I never accomplish anything. All I do is care for one small baby, cook, do laundry and occasionally clean. How is it that one small person can overtake your whole life?? My day now revolves around her naps, feeding and poop schedule. But I love it! I really do!! And I am itching to try again. I want a house full. But maybe that is just the sleep deprivation talking.


  1. I don't really have a comment on your post, but I do want to say that your blog has been a huge encouragement to me as I begin my own embryo adoption. I hope I can post about being out of the loop 14 (9+5) months from now.....

  2. I feel the same way! How can one little one be Sooo much work!?!!

  3. When I was pregnant I always thought I would have all the time in the world to clean, cook, blog, etc. I was sadly amazed at just how much goes into being a mommy. I had a new appreciation and level of understanding that required me to make many apologies to people who had given me excuses of not being able to do things because they had ONE kid. I get it now.

    Your time will free up a bit as she becomes more mobile and can easily entertain herself. My daughter didn't really play with toys until she was 9 months old, and that was when I started being able to spend time getting things done.

  4. I am stopping by from ICLW and just wanted to say that it's totally normal for babies at 5 months to still wake at night. Inconvenient, yes, but normal. I think there are so many cultural influences trying to tell us mamas that they should sleep for 12 hours straight at 6 weeks old. Maybe some babies do. Mine didn't and STILL don't. I had to learn to relax, nurse them if they were hungry (they are twins) and move on. At 17 months, they still get up at night. What can I say? The mama milk is good! ;)


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