tic tock, tic tock

Time is flying by and May will be here before you know it! Why does that matter? Because May we try again!!! AF just came....and went....and now it is just the waiting game until she returns in 21-ish more days. Then the meds and appointments start. And about 3 weeks into May I will live for Florida. Between now and then life will be hectic. We are planning a yard sale on the 20th. We are collecting donations of items from people to help raise the rest of the moolah we need. My sister and I are doing the sale together. She has a crap-ton of baby stuff that she is selling (for herself) but anything that does not sell she is giving to me and the following week a local place is doing a Baby Bonanza sale that I will take the remaining stuff to. They charge you $40 to sell there, but if we have enough it will be worth it. We are hoping to make $500 between the two sales. More would be nice, but $500 would be awesome! Anything will help though.

I am nervous about trying again. Getting a negative was so much harder than I thought it would be. I hate the thoughts of going through it again. But try we must. And try we will. Soon! While I am nervous I am also excited. I dream of being pregnant again. Had I been a fertile gal I could have been a Dug.gar. Or maybe a surrogate as the twos really are terrible at times and having 19 littles running around might drive me batty. But I really do enjoy being pregnant and desperately want another chance. But I remind myself that it is up to Him and I want His will. And I pray that His will includes a sibling for Maddie.