Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Monday, April 1, 2013

needed this today

Sadly, the past few weeks have been sad and disappointing in bloggy land. It seems like every day there is another loss, another negative. Between this and my own negative cycle 2 months ago it is hard to be optimistic about my next cycle. Each time I read about another blogger suffering from a loss or a BFN I hurt for them. And I feel that pain all over again. I hate that infertility is wrought with so much sadness. I can't help but wonder if it will work next time. A part of me wants to just stop now and and not put myself through this again. But the truth is that no matter what I have to try again. I am not ready to give up.

So this pic is for all of you that need it today. I hope that it is as much an encouragement to you as it was to me.


  1. I like it. Sometimes it can be so hard to hold onto hope! There has been so much loss recently.

  2. *hugs* The past has been written, but the future is new and unwritten. I hang onto that and it is hopeful and exciting. I am praying for your next cycle. I'm holding onto oodles of hope for the both of us. :)

  3. Wow, has it really been 2 months for you???
    Thanks for sharing this. There has been lots of loss, both on blogger world and on babycenter.
    I share those same thoughts: can I put myself through this again? Can I find hope for the next time?
    I'm praying for you as you save $$ and hope for your next cycle.

  4. I totally get your feelings. I have always said that fertility struggles should come with a crystal ball. If we could all just know that in the end we get the children of our hopes and dreams then the in between would be far less painful. I have so many feeling looking back on my 3+ years of treatments, surgeries, and disappointments. I don't regret a minute of it or resent the path I had to take to get where I am now. However, I just wish I had known that it would happen because I had so many dark moments. I know at times it feels so dark and frustrating but you will have your happy ending. Thinking of you and knowing that you will be a momma we just have to wait to see how and when it happens. Stay strong, that is a beautiful picture!


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