Yesterday was the first day of April's ICLW (see link on the right. Or is it the left?? It's there somewhere!) For those new to my blog let me tell ya a bit about me.
*I am not a newbie, but an infertile veteran. Hubby and I began ttc way back in the 90's. It was 1998 to be exact.
*We have so many things wrong with our reproductive organs that I don't even know where to start. A brief summary is no spermies, blocked tube, damaged ovary (on the side with the good tube...go figure!), endo, and mild PCOS. At least I still had a uterus or I would really be up a creek!
*We tried the adoption route first. Twice in fact. We are one of the horror stories that you hear about. Both fell through, one after we had the baby for 3 months. But even though it was not a good experience I am still a strong supporter of adoption. Just not for me.
*We did 4 IUIs with donor sperm. I de-fertilzed that man as well. The counts were high in the lab but once they thawed it the counts were low. Really??? We combined 2 vials and still no go. I even got a nice uterine infection too. I am one of those "if it can go wrong it will go wrong" kinda people.
*We had one last hope and it was embryo adoption. Wish I had heard of it years ago!!! The story is long but truly amazing! We did one FET and were so fortunate to get a BFP and last year we had the cutest little girl ever. And I mean ever!!! You just wanna gobble her up!!
*Though we are on the "other side" of infertility we still consider ourselves "infertiles". The pain is still there. The uncertainty as well. We want another baby but we have to go through the whole process again. No surprises for us!
The last 12 years were long, difficult and filled with pain. But they were good years as well. We grew as a couple and are still crazy in love. We have a strong relationship and are best friends. Infertility strengthened our relationship. I learned a lot through the journey. Though I admit, I still hate infertility. I have just learned to live with it better.