Visit from the Boobie Fairy

During my pregnancy I was not fortunate enough to have my boobs grow. But once my milk came in, wowzers!!! The Boobie Fairy was quite generous to me!!! I haven't had girls this perky since I was in my early 20's and I must say that I like 'em!! Hubby probably does too, but only from a distance. They may look nice but they hurt! especially now that I am drying up. Yes, you heard it right, I am no longer nursing. Surprisingly this has been very hard on me to quit nursing. I have always been one of those that had never really felt strongly about breast feeding and hoped to try it, but if it didn't work I was okay with that. I do think that it is better for a baby, but that formula is good as well.

In the hospital Maddie latched on perfectly. All of the nurses commented on what a great nurser she was. And I actually loved that time of bonding. Then she developed jaundice and I did not have milk yet. My milk took quite awhile to come in. So we supplemented with formula. While in the hospital I nursed her before every bottle and for the most part she did fine. Then we got home. She began fighting me and pushing me away, making a yucky face any time I tried to nurse. SO I began to pump and bottle feed. This worked for a few days, until I started venturing out of the house and it became a huge inconvenience. Even then I had planned to continue. And then the migraines came. I have had 2 really bad ones in a week and the meds that are safe while nursing are just not cutting it. So I need to go back on the good stuff and breast feeding is a thing of the past.

I thought that I was fine with it, but for the first few days I cried. A lot! But I am better now and Maddie is happy and healthy so that is all that matters. Now I am crying over the pain of drying up. It really hurts!!! But most of all, I will miss the new girls. They really were quite nice!