Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Visit from the Boobie Fairy

During my pregnancy I was not fortunate enough to have my boobs grow. But once my milk came in, wowzers!!! The Boobie Fairy was quite generous to me!!! I haven't had girls this perky since I was in my early 20's and I must say that I like 'em!! Hubby probably does too, but only from a distance. They may look nice but they hurt! especially now that I am drying up. Yes, you heard it right, I am no longer nursing. Surprisingly this has been very hard on me to quit nursing. I have always been one of those that had never really felt strongly about breast feeding and hoped to try it, but if it didn't work I was okay with that. I do think that it is better for a baby, but that formula is good as well.

In the hospital Maddie latched on perfectly. All of the nurses commented on what a great nurser she was. And I actually loved that time of bonding. Then she developed jaundice and I did not have milk yet. My milk took quite awhile to come in. So we supplemented with formula. While in the hospital I nursed her before every bottle and for the most part she did fine. Then we got home. She began fighting me and pushing me away, making a yucky face any time I tried to nurse. SO I began to pump and bottle feed. This worked for a few days, until I started venturing out of the house and it became a huge inconvenience. Even then I had planned to continue. And then the migraines came. I have had 2 really bad ones in a week and the meds that are safe while nursing are just not cutting it. So I need to go back on the good stuff and breast feeding is a thing of the past.

I thought that I was fine with it, but for the first few days I cried. A lot! But I am better now and Maddie is happy and healthy so that is all that matters. Now I am crying over the pain of drying up. It really hurts!!! But most of all, I will miss the new girls. They really were quite nice!

9 comments:

  1. OH! We are all different and you have to do what is best for you! SO GLAD you are both healthy and happy!

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  2. Where are the pictures of Maddie???

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  3. The hospital photos have been ordered and should be here soon. I will try to upload some of the ones that I have taken and post them tomorrow.

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  4. Jess- I am glad that you got to experience that beautiful nursing honeymoon in the hospital! It doesn't always work for everyone, for reasons that are different for each mom. You are so cute for being so upset, but Maddie loves you just the same! Can't wait for more pics!!S

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  5. Your blog and overall story gives us much needed hope.Where did you have the fet at a local fertility clinic? I am interested in this and they talk about ivf I already did that at age 32 without sucess.Don't want to try again.You didn't need a homestudy or anything? What a wonderful blessing for you.SO happy.

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  6. Barb, my local clinic closed but there is a new one that is starting a program this fall. http://www.fertilitypartnership.com/

    I do not know what all this program entails as it is new, but my clinic did not require a home study. Most clinics do not. This blog post will give you more info on EA: http://agreateryes.blogspot.com/2010/03/how-and-why-of-embryo-adoption.html

    Also, feel free to email me at jcmulroney@aol.com with any questions that you might have.

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  7. Jess thank for the info.Love the new pics by the way.I will e mail you thanks.

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  8. Jess I was looking at another blog,I got confused about the pictures.

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  9. No Jess I am confused.I did see the new pictures.She is so precious.I am having an off day I guess.I will e mail you thanks.I found that info on your blog too.

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