Adjustments

Maddie will be three weeks old tomorrow and we are still adjusting to the changes around here. It is amazing how someone so small can change your whole life!! I am healing well from my c-section though my days in the hospital bed have really messed my back up. I went to the chiropractor today and hope that will help some. I am having migraines every few days from it and I am ready for them to be over. Not sleeping isn't helping. Miss Maddie sleeps....during the day. Night time, not so much. And momma is tired!!!

I have found that I love being a mommy, but it is a bit overwhelming. Not the actual parenting and care taking part. But the I-finally-have-a-baby-after-11 years-and-no-one-can-take-her-away-from-me part. Many times it just doesn't seem real to me. Though at 3 am it seems very real to me!!! I still think like an infertile and it is odd for me to talk diapers and sleep schedules. I still cringe while walking past the baby department at Target. Old habits die hard.

I am also missing being pregnant. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that there is no guarantee that I will ever get to do this again. I loved being pregnant and I want another baby in a year or so and it saddens me that it will never be an easy road to get pregnant.

All in all things are going well. If I can get her to sleep at night I will be able to say that things are great!! But until then I will cherish these midnight moments together.