Baby loves church

You always hear of babies having their days and nights mixed up. I fear that Maddie will be one of those. Rarely do I feel her moving around during the day, but each evening I can count on her to start her acrobatic routine. It seems like 7 pm is her favorite time of the day. I just felt her do a somersault and she is just getting started! And when we are in church...Oh my! Once the preacher starts preaching she starts a movin'! I think that we have a little charismatic baby on our hands! Someone at church told me that all of her kids recognized our pastor's voice once they were born. I thought that was neat and think that Maddie will be the same way. I think it quite appropriate as not only is my hubby a minister and church will be a big part of her life, but our pastor has been extremely supportive. Even taking time out of his busy schedule to pray with us right before our FET.

So I am off to Wednesday evening service and preparing her for to start groovin'!

Ordered my diaper bag!

I am a sucker for designer hand bags. My dream is to own a Prada, a Jimmy Choo and a Birkin bag. Love them all!!! Right now I have to settle for carrying a Coach and a Dooney, but that is okay, I love them too. For years I have dreamt of my diaper bag. I used to want a Fleurville and I still like them. But a few years ago I discovered Timi & Leslie. And I began to covet. They are all so pretty and shiny!!! I want one in every color! So once I saw two pink lines I began searching for the perfect diaper bag.

Today I found it!!! Once I clicked on the image the heavenly choir began to sing. This was THE ONE! And what makes it better is that is one SALE. The original price was ....gulp.....$400. Way out of my price range. But this one was on sale for $107! PLUS I had saved up some Amazon gift cards (thanks Swagbucks!) so I got it for about half that price. So awesome!!!! And I know that you are all wanting to see it, so without further delay..........

Maddie's first outfits

When we found out that we were pregnant I went shopping. I so wanted to buy baby stuff but not knowing the gender made it hard to do so. I did find the cutest baby boy sweater and bought that (cause I was having a boy ya know!) and immediately felt guilty because I didn't buy something for a baby girl. So I found this adorable little onesie for Christmas and decided to get it just in case:



Then the day of the ultrasound I went out and had to buy something for Maddie. I found this little cutie then:


Then today I went to Burlington Coat Factory to browse the clearance Easter dresses and fell in love with this dress. This will be the dress that she wears for her hospital photos.


Shopping for a baby girl is so much fun!!!!

Getting Excited!

I must confess that last week was a bit rough for me. (And for those of you that have a hard time reading posts about pregnancy then I would skip this post. It is one that would have made me angry a year ago) I have always criticized women that were disappointed with the gender of their child. I mean, "how dare you not be happy that you are having a boy instead of a girl?!?! Or vice versa. You should just be grateful that you could have children at all. Do you know how many women want a baby and would be happy with any gender??" This is the diatribe that would be in my head each time I heard of someone that was unhappy with their unborn baby's gender. I was harsh. I was critical. I was right. And now I am one of them. It shames me to admit it.

Not that I didn't want a baby girl. I really, really do!! But I have had a boy planned for almost 5 months. I called the baby "he". I imagined a son. I just hadn't thought of a girl. My intuition was so strong. It wasn't even wishful thinking because in the beginning I really didn't care. But as time went on I felt so strongly that I was carrying a boy. Having a girl has really thrown me for a loop. There are so many reasons that I wanted a boy:

*I am the oldest of 3 children, yet the last to have a baby. Both of my siblings have girls. I wanted a boy to be the first at something.

*My sister and a good friend of mine both have a bunch of baby girl stuff. They are both so kind and want to share. It is all like new, but I want my baby to have her own things, not all hand-me-downs. I want her to be special.

*Little boys love their mommy the mostest.

All of these thoughts are stupid and irrational. I know it so don't judge the crazy, hormonal pregnant woman! I am doing enough of that myself. Since Thursday I have come to realize several things:

*Regardless of gender my baby is special.

*God chose for us to have a girl for a reason. THIS is the child that we are meant to have.

*Little girls are adorable and I am going to have a blast dressing her up and one day getting mani and pedis together.

*And though she will love her daddy the mostest I will still be special to her and she will still love me.

crib bedding....HELP!!!!!

Now that I know we are having a girl I am trying to plan the nursery. Everything, and I mean everything, that I like is boy. I have searched for hours and cannot find a girl set that I like that will match my furniture. The few that I have liked have black in them and my furniture is dark brown.Espresso to be exact. Also, the walls are a tan-ish beige and because we hope to sell before the baby is born (or soon after) I don't want to paint them. I want something that is not too "themed" (butterflies, bears, etc). My niece's nursery is pink and brown and I would prefer something a little different. I like modern and trendy but not gender neutral. I need some help!!! I also don't want to spend $500!! I would like to keep it under $200 if possible. Can anybody hep me?????? I need ideas! Links! To win the lottery so I can hire a designer!

We are having a baby.........

GIRL! She was quite shy about showing us anything but she finally did. I was not leaving until we knew something!!! I will be honest, I am adjusting to finding that the baby is a girl. I am shocked that my "intuition" (or lack thereof) could have been so wrong. My sister and I went shopping and I kept migrating to boy things. Please don't get me wrong, I love the idea of having a girl, but for 4 months I felt like I was having a boy and have been calling the baby "he". Everything that I have planned has been for a baby boy. I always criticized people that were disappointed in the gender of their baby and now I am one of them. But I am not really disappointed, just needing to plan differently.

On another note, a more important note, the baby looked very healthy. They were not able to see a few things so I go back in 4 weeks. Now if this baby has decided to play an April Fools joke and is really a boy on the next ultrasound someone is going to be grounded!!!! =)

Procreating is not a superpower!

Have you seen the graphic that says "I make babies. What's your superpower?"? **gag** The first time I saw that I threw up a little in my mouth. Why is it that some fertiles feel that way? Oooooh....your ovaries work. And your man has 60 billion sperm. WOW! You really are special! Teach me all you know oh wise one. How do you find time to speak to us mere mortals??

Cockroaches and crack whores do it everyday yet we do not call them superheroes! Let's see what they can do with a low sperm count and mild endometriosis. Now that takes some talent to conceive with issues! Since I am pregnant after having mild PCOS, endometriosis, a blocked tube and NO sperm then I must deserve a super hero named after me!!! Hmmm....who should I be? Barren Girl? Empress Endo? Princess of PCOS??

So to all of you fellow superheroes, what would your name be?