Tomorrow is the day!!!

I can't believe that tomorrow, the day, is almost here. I will be awaking in 12 hours to get ready to leave for the clinic. This is so unreal to me! I am as ready as I will ever be. I have been munching on pineapple and am considering making a smoothie out of it tomorrow. I had acupuncture today. Not sure that I really cared for it. Actually, I can honestly say that I hated it! But it will be worth it if it helps us conceive. I am very tired from it which is good. I will sleep very well tonight!!

I still need to pack a bag with a blanket, pillow and book, but other than that I am ready to go. Talk to you all tomorrow!

Tine is flying!!

I hope that my 2WW passes as quickly as this is passing!! Time is just flying by! But I am very glad that it is. I would hate to be sitting around, twiddling my thumbs all week. Today I am going to hit the mall. What better way to pass the time than shopping??? I can't think of anything that I would rather do today.

I am going to mail out our Christmas cards. This is the first year that we did photo cards. (they were free on seehere.com. 50 of them for $3.19 s&h, use the code: newbaby) They turned out fabulous!!!! So great in fact that I ordered another 50 cards. Hopefully next year we can do photo cards again, but with a few little ones in the photo as well.

Well, I am off! I hope that all of you have a great day today!

Gettin' Ready!

In preparation for 24 hours of bed rest this Friday and Saturday I am making a list and checking it twice. I am a planner and don't want to be unprepared. It is only 24 hours, but I OCD like that. Today I purchased my pineapple. Tomorrow I am going to get a refill of my prenatals and thyroid medication. Wednesday I am going to order half of the meds that I will need if the transfer is successful. Thursday I am packing a bag for the doctor's office. They told me to bring a pillow, blanket and a book. I will remain there for an hour after the transfer, laying on my back, and I can bring whatever makes me comfortable. I think that this calls for a new book! Karen Kingsbury has one out that I have not read yet. On Thursday I am going to rent Julie & Julia, Steel Magnolias (always a fave) and maybe a few Christmas movies to help keep me entertained. I might even borrow my sister's What to Expect When You Are Expecting book, just to get a head start!

I am still very at peace about all of this. And getting a little excited. I can't wait to meet my embies and I really hope to have a pic of them to share with all of you on Friday!!!

I love all the attention!!!

When you are pregnant everyone wants to talk to you and ask you about the pregnancy and the baby. When you adopt and a match has been made everyone wants to know the details of the new addition. But when you go through fertility treatments few people ask you how things are going. Not because they do not care, though some really do not, but because they either do not understand or there is no guarantee of a baby. Whatever the reason it can be painful to go through shots, appointments and pills all alone.

I have been very fortunate to have a few women that have been extremely supportive. We have been very open about our embryo adoption and have no trouble telling interested parties about it. We do this for several reasons. One is because we will be honest with our children about their conception and want them to ever feel shame in it. Another reason is education. In telling others of embryo adoption two different couples have decided to consider donating their embryos to an infertile couple in the future. This does my heart good to know that these precious embryos will get a chance at life.

Today at church I was stopped 4 times by someone asking me how I was doing and when was the transfer. I cannot tell you how much I appreciated not only them asking, but that they remembered that the date was nearing. I also love the fact that they are all praying for us and that it will work. Between them praying for us and all of you praying for us I am confident that His will will be done, positive or negative. So thank you all for your support!!!!

new meds, new side effects

So I started the Vivelle patch yesterday. I assumed that since it was just more estrogen that I would not even notice that I was wearing it. Wrong!!! I have been migraine free since I began the Estrace but the Vivelle gave me one of the worst migraines last night. And at this point of my cycle I am no longer allowed to use any prescription medication, just over the counter. Let me tell you, Tylenol and Aleve just don't cut it!! I must say that if I do get pregnant that is one thing that I am not looking forward to, not being able to take medications. I have had some kind of head, allergy sinus thing for almost 2 weeks. I hate the thought of not being able to take sinus meds or use nasal sprays. I am sure that there are things that I can take if it gets too bad, but I won't have the freedom to drug myself at will anymore. No more Nyquil either. Bummer!!! I swear by that stuff! It will cure almost anything!!!

Tomorrow is my last day for lupron and I am really hoping that by stopping that I will not get anymore migraines. After waking up and feeling like poo, I looked up the side effects for Vivelle. It can cause back pain. That explains why I felt like an eighty year old grandmother when I woke up this morning! I feel like such a whiner, but I figure that if I have to go through all of this that I have earned the right to complain!!! =)

This time next week.....

I will be PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise)!!!! I had my ultrasound today and everything looks perfect. WOO HOO!!! So tomorrow I start the suppositories tomorrow and I end my lupron on Sunday. One week without injections! Whatever will I do with myself??? I would say sleep in, but I still have to take Estrace, patches and suppositories at 7 am. Oh well! It was a nice thought.

I was talking to the nurse today about my protocol and she reminded me that I will need to continue the suppositories, Estrace and the patch for the first trimester if I become pregnant. What I didn't realize was that I would have to order all of these meds once I know that I am pregnant. That means the week of Christmas I will have to spend $300!!! I am not too happy about this at all!! I may order the 2 less expensive meds now, just in case. That way I will only have to cough up $235 the week of Christmas. I so wish that my clinic would allow me generic estrogen. That darn Estrace is $$$$$$$. The nurse did say that I could just fill a partial RX and then order the rest as needed to keep from having to spend so much at one time.

I am hoping that this last week speeds by. I am excited and scared all at the same time. But that is not going to change anytime soon so I just want to get it over with. Then I can focus on my babies. For one week, regardless of whether or I become pregnant or not, they will be my babies and I will enjoy ever moment with them.

Nine & a half days

I can't believe how close the transfer is! Just a week and a half to go! A part of me wants time to fly and a part of me wants it to go slowly, to hold onto this hope. I am trying to stay busy with decorating, shopping and baking. I have a feeling that I will gain a few pounds before this Christmas season is over!!! But that is okay. If I do get pregnant I will have to go on a low carb diet so I may as well enjoy it while I can. And enjoy it I am! Tonight I made cheesy enchiladas and blackberry cobbler for dessert. Darn that Pioneer Woman!!!

I have an ultrasound on Friday. I am assuming to check my uterine lining?? Anyone verify that? I also start my Vivelle patches that day. And on Saturday I begin the progesterone suppositories. Can anyone say fun?!?! Next week a few days of antibiotics and then the transfer. Starting that day I add 2 more shots each day as well as the suppositories, estrogen pills 2 x a day and something else. I swear, this getting knocked up is a full time job! I have an iPhone and have reminders set for each pill and shot. My calender is littered with dots (which indicate that something is scheduled). If we are fortunate enough to have a baby from all of this you can be sure to know that I remind them of all of this each time they have a moment of rebellion!