Our journey through infertility, failed adoptions and now parenthood through the miracle of embryo adoption/donation.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Baby unBump

As of today I am 16 weeks. (yay!) I am four weeks away from the halfway point. It is hard to believe as it feels like yesterday that I was in FL. I am feeling great now that my migraines have finally subsided. I am not as tired and I have more of an appetite too. I don't even feel pregnant. And I don't look pregnant either.

For the skinny chicks reading this here is a fat girl anatomy lesson. There are 3 kinds of belly shapes we chubbies can have: D shape (rounded), B shaped (with an indent in the middle making it into the shape of, well, a B) and an apron belly (the worst of them all, it is a hanging belly, like that of wearing an apron). With Maddie I had a B belly. It sucked! But about this time in the pregnancy she had pushed all of my fat up and I could wear the right clothes and 'look' pregnant. My B essentially became more of a P then. I lamented the fact that I didn't have a cute bump back then. But my lovely blogger buddies assured me that I would round out and I did. At about 32 weeks.

With this being my second pregnancy I was excited to show sooner. And maybe have a nice, rounded out D. Because "they" say you show sooner. And "they" say that you get bigger the second time around. Well, what do "they" know? NOTHING!!! "They" know nothing at all. I started this pregnancy 15 pounds less than the previous one but with still a B belly but with an added, albeit small, apron belly (darn you, c-section!!). Little Olivia is hanging out very low. Maddie was higher. So I just look fat. Well, fatter. There is no fat being pushed up, no hint at rounding out. At all. I just can't suck my fat in anymore. And because of my B belly I can't wear fitted or ruched tops to help give me that rounded look. Do you know how hard it is to find winter tops that cover my belly but don't just look baggy and huge? Very hard!!! My regular clothes are too snug and I need maternity, but I am limited on what I can wear. Being fat sucks!!! I know, I know! I should have lost weight before I got pregnant again. I get it. And if it wasn't so freaking hard I would have. Actually, I did. I lost 15 pounds. It took months of hard work to do even that. Thank you Hashimoto's and hypothyroidism. I really appreciate that you hold onto my fat cells so tightly. Like BFFs.

And to add insult to injury I have an anterior placenta which means that it is in the front, keeping me from feeling her very often. I look forward to feeling her all of the time.

These two things are annoying. But honestly, it is no biggie. As much as I don't like them I am just thankful to be pregnant. It is a gift that I cherish, even with my ugly misshapen belly.


  1. I can totally relate girl! Hang in there. When I was 30 weeks pregnant I went back to work (as a teacher) after being away for the summer and a co-worker asked how the baby was doing (she thought I had given birth over the summer. I just glared at her and pointed to my stomach and said, "Nope! She is still in there!" I am the I-just-look-fat-not-pregnant type too. It sucks. I hope you find a few good pieces to wear!

  2. Hostimoto, check. Anterior placenta (with Leland), check. I feel you and it's okay to wine a bit.

    Do watch for patterns of movement though. Even though I didn't feel Leland much, I went in for a check one day that I felt almost no movement. That's when we discovered my low fluid levels, which also reduces how much you feel the baby. Glad I trusted my gut.

  3. Your post made me laugh! Enjoy being preggo anyway-without the "perfect rounded" baby bump. :)

  4. So thrilled for you jess. Good luck with the next 24 weeks :)

  5. Awww.... Jess, I bet you look super cute. Your big belly will come - enjoy these last few weeks of bending over and tying your shoes. Lol!
    (I'm 9w and already outgrowing my regular clothes, I'm not sure this is ideal either....)


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